“When reality smashes my dream to bits I mope and snarl while the first shock lasts and then patiently, idiotically, start putting it together again And so always However often the house of cards falls shall I set about rebuilding it” “We’re now building one home each day” “For there is nowhere to go”
there used to be a brighter boy with pockets full of tinkertoys who liked to say that he could spell his name he let his room become a mess and wore his hairdo like a dress then tangled up the earbuds in his pocket so then he grinned a bit too wide and wore his pants a bit too high and stuffed the floor into his dresser drawer and now he has to float around and squint real hard to see the ground and bump between the corners of his walls he pulls the string of a balloon and paddles air with a silver spoon and sometimes sings a song to spend his time
Now you’ve done it, Here comes another assignment
Shoulder pressed to shoulder in a daydream
Smiling, squinting skyward through a sunbeam
I read you a page from the book that you’d been holding
You said it was the sweetest thing to ever happen to you
Is that still true
Daydreamer tears when he drinks
Somebody’s singing to me
Pill-popper smiles while he sleeps
Nobody’s going to tell him
He’s drawing circles
Crawling on his knees, crying
Wah wah wah
Wah wah wah
Every day’s the fourth of July
Scribbling stars on his eyes
Daniel was safe in the lion’s den
Biting his tongue with the wiser men
I get all of my sunshine through television screens
I asked the VCR to loop a single scene
Daydreamer tears when he drinks
Somebody’s singing to me
Pill-popper smiles while he sleeps
Nobody’s there to tell him
He’s tripping over someone
He only tapes the reruns
He’s chewing on a lego
crawling on his knees, crying
Wah wah wah
Wah wah wah
Wah wah wah
Wah wah wah
You really should wipe your nose before you drown
You really should wipe your nose before you drown
You really should wipe your nose before you drown
You really should wipe your nose before you drown
Don’t build me up I’m scared of heights
Don’t shave my head I’ll live with lice
I have the right to lose my mind
I don’t need help I want to whine
Wah wah wah
Wah wah wah
Wah wah wah
Wah wah wah
I HAVE THE RIGHT TO LOSE MY MIND
I DON’T NEED HELP
I WANT TO WHINE
I HAVE THE RIGHT TO LOSE MY MIND
I DON’T NEED HELP
I WANT TO WHINE
Mah na mah na
Do do do-do-do
Mah na mah na
Do do-do do
I don’t know why we keep coming here
Dull and decomposing
Life is disappointing
Baby cat in a quantum box
Dead and still alive
Dull and decomposing
Life is disappointing
Baby cat in a quantum box
Dead and still alive
Dull and decomposing
Life is disappointing
Baby cat in a quantum box
Dead and still alivethis ain’t nothing gonna make me smarter i ain’t brave but i sure catch an itch i know better than to be not stronger i ain’t brave but i sure catch an itch Oh lord, whatever gets you through the night, somebody said. 7am soda, wanna die. 7am soda, wanna die.
Drive me home I long to be in isolation I’ve grown tired and overly inebriated I am a ghost clinging to other people’s conversations While I barely know a single living soul at this party I hate that I agreed to come I thought that maybe it’d be fun But now I’m scraping vomit off my shoe I would rather not fall asleep in a stranger’s bathtub My head is gonna burst I’m starting to worry what they put in my punch I think it’s best you drive me home The man beside me is coughing foam I do believe my bedtime has come and passed I see so clearly now I’ve made a mistake I see so clearly now I’m out of my place I hate that I agreed to come I thought that maybe it’d be fun But now I’m scraping vomit off my shoe Drive me home please mother won’t you please I can’t remember where I’ve placed my feet I should get lost now before I blacken an eye I’m not one to start a fight but I think I pissed off that guy
my friend’s a blackbird beating on the door she says “hello, y’know I couldn’t blame you” coo my cheek is aching chewing on a sore she says “hello, y’know I couldn’t blame you” and she says “y’know I see the blood stained to your teeth” and she says “you know that I know you aren’t sleeping” she says that “I can tell you haven’t been eating again” coo what could you expect from me when I was only a baby I see things that aren’t there I feel spiders in my hair I don’t know what you want from me when I was only a baby ooo I’ll be 21 soon
I want so bad to sort my thoughts But don’t know where to start I’ll never get the words across to mean what’s in my heart I’ll reach the cusp of clarity then lose my grip so soon My brain and mouth need parity I can’t bring them in tune So many pictures in my mind and I can’t seem to free them I look for words but never find accurate descriptions I want so bad to write a song that opens up my head It hurts to always get it wrong when so much could be said I dream I wrote you Anna-Lee by Edgar Allen Poe He phrases thoughts so beautifully with lovely structured flow If I could write one-tenth as wise as he you’d understand The colors that flash through my eyes with each touch of your hands I wish I wrote Shall I Compare Thee to A Summer’s Day Like Shakespeare spoke locked in the stare of Agnes Hathaway If I could write one-tenth as clear as he you might perceive The orchestra that’s in my ears when listening to you breathe But I’m giving you everything that I got I know it isn’t all that you deserve The feeling is there but when I talk my tongue gets caught I’m always trying to chase down every word So just pretend that I’m a better poet Lord knows I’d love to be Then maybe you will see me as I see you
I relapsed back to an old addiction last night stirred up my suppressed affliction I only saw her face pass through a dream since I have woke I’ve unearthed everything now she floats at the surface of my mind I thought I sunk her ship for the last time I’ll try to flood her deck with alcohol so hopefully in short time I won’t recall the color of her aura in my sight the flushing of her cheeks amidst dim light the copper waves that float atop her head the siren’s song drew me along misled she struck my heart and left it pierced the wheel of my emotions is the one that she steers
Here lies another ballad of a thin man Know of a guy who has to prove himself to A guy who has to prove himself to A guy who has to prove himself to A guy who has to prove himself to A guy with an insecure voice on a platform he doesn’t understand A guy trained by an algorithm A guy with no one he loves to take him seriously A guy conditioned to only speak blasphemy Some guy who plays with toys he bought Some guy who lets his little brother play with the broken controller Some guy who lies to the kids at the lunch table Some guy who still hangs around high school football games five years too late A guy who watched a man walk on the moon The same guy who wants to claim the celestial entity One guy who wants to make his grandmother proud The same guy who wants to claim a billion dollars A guy who wants to own a person One guy who wants to own lots of people A pleasant lunatic who can only groove with the werewolf in his mirror or A smart sociopath who swears to see his own face in the sky It’s hard to love some guy who has to prove himself to someone else Some guy who was going to do great things someday Some guy who only speaks blasphemy Some guy who wishes his days away
after many weeks and many prayers a cloud could be there in the air parading through the peaks of mountains fingers point toward the horizon joy oh joy hip-hip-hooray we knew that God could hear us pray there is a rain cloud in the sky we knew that God does hear us cry still tumbleweeds still grains of sand a fox and mouse are holding hands the thirsty camels tap their feet disco dancing in the heat we all can see it we all believe we all must stay here we must not leave all gather close here comes the prophet a cloud will bring the desert water they learned too late there was no cloud it looked so sure they sang so loud but in the end they had to find that something else was in the sky
Hows about you find a place to go and shut your mouth Now I don’t wanna talk no more I think I’ll settle down I don’t want to sing no more and I think I’ll shut my mouth I don’t want to talk no more to you You’re breaking my funky mood I don’t want to waste my time talking to you I don’t want to waste my time talking to you I don’t want to waste my time I don’t want to waste my time talking to you Lord don’t waste my time I don’t want to waste my time talking to you Lord don’t waste my time I wish I was fishing not for you Lord don’t waste my time I thought I was a spaceman but I was only dry I thought I was a lawyer but I was only a liar Why’d you have to wake me up before the birds Why’d you have to go and wake me up before the birds I was gonna sing a song about it but I forgot the words Why’d you have to go and say hello to me now I wish I was dead My brother Trenton here he don’t play guitar no more And I’m turning red ’cause I got a guitar and he’s got a ukulele sing it ukulele ukulele Uke-uke leke-leke leddle-leddle-loo yoo hoo Hiddle leedle liddle leedle liddle leedle loo (doo doodle-doodle doodle-doodle doo) I don’t want to go to work today I think I’ll just be dead I don’t want to fish today I think I’ll die instead This song’s getting a little dark I want it to be about death
We knew the world would not be the same A few people laughed, a few people cried Most people were silent Now I am become death, the destroyer of worlds
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"The nature of existence is so utterly fascinating
How could you not want people to share it
When you're in love, you want to tell the world
Who would not, as it were. fall in love and want to tell the world"
Last night, I realized waking from a dream
That all of my dear conscious mind is composed of energy
Now I do see I've always been one with everything
Now I do feel deep in my eyes the cosmos are alive
In every cell that threads my being, the universe breathes
In every thought and melody, the stars have always been
I'm one with everything
Thank you
If I could find the words to say
And strings to piece a tune
I'd write a million songs to play
To make your smile bloom
If I could box the sun away
And steal it from the sky
I'd save it for a rainy day
To raise your sunken eyes, oh
I don't care how long it takes
Or how much breath I'll maybe waste
I'll search this rock and many more
We'll meet upon a distant star
I've dreamt of you ten thousand times
But haven't seen your face
And yet it feels we've always touched
Through oddities in time and space
All I've ever really wanted
Was you to help me build a rocket
And blast away
Far from this place, please
Blast away with me, towards the stars
Into the eye of the man in the moon
Wave goodbye, and close the capsule door
We'll watch the world shrink away as we depart
If I'm with you, I'm fairly certain
Nothing out there would make me frightened
I'd only need to hear your voice
And all my doubts would be destroyed
So if one day, our fuel runs out
And we're barreling toward a black hole's mouth
I'd want to hold your hands in mine
And count the seconds passing by
I'd be happy then and there
Just grateful that I got to share
A perfect moment, in a perfect life
With you always by my side
Somewhere, sometime
Beyond the sun's shine
Over the rainbow
Under three moons' glow
You're staring at the sky
Waiting for my flashing lights
To descend from the stars
And then, at last, were not apart
Would I know the words to say
Could I find the notes to play
To ask you "would you join my trek"
Throughout the universe and back
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